Insecurity and Renewal!

My relationship with Insecurity has been a very large cross to bear. I am aware of the importance of holding my ground when it appears, and I allow myself to feel how much I am holding onto a limited, flawed, and insecure idea of self. That pitifully powerless image of self is destined to fall away into an ever-present lightness of being. All I have to do is accept it, and let it be.

In a that clear light of being, insecurity is seen to be a beacon, that, all the while, has been here to reveal that I will survive the death of impersonating myself. The clear choice is how to consciously dream a New Dream. Thank you insecurity for revealing that like all mind activity: insecurity is not an object of attention, but a process of renewal!

10 Responses to “Insecurity and Renewal!”

  1. on 14 Oct 2019 at 6:44 am ceejaypea

    I have learned to approach ‘waves of uncertainty’ as an invitation, as I usually discover something useful (not always what was expected) if I hang in without jumping to negative conclusions. Clearly body and mind react to the slightest possible change as danger without considering that the change may be to something similar but exciting, or such a surprise that I never would have guessed. Namaste.

  2. on 13 Oct 2019 at 12:03 pm Lori

    P.S. Choosing love = peace

  3. on 13 Oct 2019 at 9:07 am Lori

    β€œThe only choice I have is how I choose to experience this moment.” Keshav thank you for repeating this. I understand this better now. My new mantra – automatically incorporating breath, presence and love. And how do I want to experience this moment? From heart space, with clarity and compassion. Such a simple mantra cuts through the cycle of thoughts and emotions, helping me focus on what is really important.

  4. on 07 Oct 2019 at 6:04 pm Keshav Howe

    I have mastered the art of convincing myself that the waves of uncertainty (fear) are not real. But, my heart could still feel the threat and the need for self-protection. And yet, there is also a recognition that the only real choice I have is: how I choose to experience this moment. There is a simple clarity at the heart of "waves of uncertainty."
    Surfing = Acceptance
     

  5. on 01 Oct 2019 at 6:24 pm sasanijjs

    Thank you Donna and Keshav for a powerful weekend. 🐲

  6. on 30 Sep 2019 at 6:44 pm Lori

    Ah insecurity. Sometimes it seems to stop me in my tracks. It helps to remember, β€œI’m not stuck; I’m still moving.” Still moving and still breathing. Knowing that even on the ground, I am supported. And perhaps my time on the ground was just a perspective break and getting back up, shows I am still moving.

  7. on 23 Sep 2019 at 4:16 pm Keshav Howe

    The clearly irrational, yet seemingly primal urge to figure out if the red pill I recently took was the wisest choice – that is a seed of doubt that feeds the time-bound nature of fear.  The feeling of dangling off a cliff, hanging on for dear life; looking down and there is nothing –  nothing for me. I must continue to hold on.
     
    The importance of taking a perspective break from "life" is very clear, and compelling. "Minding the Gap" is where I/we consciously decide take a break from following mind wanderings; obsessed with interpreting, defining, or judging anything in the moment. A few minutes of undifferentiated nothingness (nothing doing) is what eventually enabled me to relax my grip on that rope.
     
    The first hand experience that the nothingness that has been the object of fear, is actually a gap in life that exposes the simple and pure light of Awareness. What an ironic blessing.

  8. on 20 Sep 2019 at 12:53 pm sasanijjs

    Last nights session was “ Hi I’m insecurity.” Keshav and I talked a bit prior about stepping into what feels uncomfortable. I noticed minds agitation to this topic to be elevated to what felt like a tipping point. I have worked with low self confidence for most if not all of my life. Ironically, when I am thrown into a challenging life situation I find a way to work through it. I think this is similar to “what if this never changed”, however there is no choice other than freedom versus suffering in the direct moment.

    I believe we have all pushed through incredible challenges only to find eventual freedom. I have also noticed that as I have gained freedom , change has become more potent. The victim can not be used as a tool to gain anything. For me, this exposes another layer of fear to let go into freedom.

  9. on 20 Sep 2019 at 11:51 am Keshav Howe

    My ongoing recovery mantra from my longtime attachment to insecurity is to remind myself that: "I am not stuck; I'm still moving!"

  10. on 19 Sep 2019 at 11:23 pm Betty

    Good timing for that quote, as I am forced to dream a new dream, and repetitively falling into the belief that I can’t make it happen. When there is nothing left to fall back on, it forces me to choose between imagining I am in a dark and lonely abyss or realizing that it is possible to create from that space of “lightness of being.” Either way, I am the one creating.

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