Home is where we must place our trust. Home is fleeting if we continue to derive our sense of identity by trusting the beliefs we hold about ourselves. The consequence is that we mostly live in conceptual worlds of our own doing. Most of us actually do not know who we are beyond the noise of repetitive thoughts and beliefs that support an unstable self image.
Home is in the space between thoughts – the Still Presence of the moment. Every moment is the present moment. Taking our rightful place as a simple Witnessing Presence of the movement of life, is what shines a light on the reality that we are already home.
I mentioned to Keshav last night during a session how mind has tried to convince me that the feel of freedom is an illusion. This of course makes no sense considering freedom is always there when we are willing to slow down and relax.
If we can only live one moment at a time; we might as well make it the present one!
After last nights session I came to realize how deeply personal the character Joe is. Thoughts always seem to revolve around something that impacts me in the moment or at some other period of time. I’m going to use this bs meter to continue letting go.
I will comment that when hiking at very high elevations my fingers were speaking to me. Numbness, tingling, lack of O2 I assume going inward to protect my more vital organs, it was kinda cool. If I breathed out more CO2 , then O2 in, I felt better. An awareness more then anything. Glad to have that opportunity to experience. Namaste.
In my experience, the physical body isn’t initially familiar with that level of relaxation. When we have trained our selves to tighten around life there is an artificial sense of comfort in discomfort. I have had countless experiences where I almost wanted to sit in suffering because of the familiarity. Keep jumping
Keshav and Joe, could you please share more about, “ …the body must learn to handle these levels of letting go.” And about “…the process is an adjustment both physically and mentally.”
Last nights session wavered from intense freedom and “o shit.” Every time I feel like I am finally at peace ,I am thankfully met with a deeper level that appears frightening. I’m appreciating all of the tools that have helped me navigate through these learning curves. Keshav mentioned that the body must learn to handle these levels of letting go. I often forget that this process is an adjustment both physically and mentally.
My ego has spent its whole life trying to protect me when, in fact, I am safe at home. I am struggling with the idea that I am in danger of losing something, of ruining something while at the same time knowing that peace, love, support is already here waiting for me to stop long enough to “go home to a place I never left.” The pull to ordinary reality “safety” is causing me much suffering. This is my experience of misplaced trust. And it is hell.
It is critical to our well-being to discern the difference between a sensory perception fully experienced, right Here and Now. Comparing that direct and palpable experience with something similar in time is a total waste of attention, and time. The highly filtered story of what we thought happened lacks much needed Presence and Perspective.
I have just discovered that the numbness in my legs does not exist when I am present. So now I have a new bullshit monitor. It is amazing and a mind blowing observation.
I trust the vibrant feel of my fingers and toes pulsating with energy. Right now! That's Home; always here, and always now. Always still, and always moving.
Diane, it is a wonderful feeling to rediscover life's "cues to be present" that can never be lost; just overlooked as we wade through stories about presence.